okay so the skinny jeans didn't work out for me so well …

The last year brought about many changes that I wasn’t really ready to make at all.  In fact one of those is getting used to the idea that change is in order.  Change wasn’t something I was all that comfortable with.  The times have changed and I need to change with them or face extinction, it is that simple.  Among the changes:

• Getting my mind around this race thing.  The presidential race made me think about it for better or worse but I had already been on the fence for quite a while now.  I was a cautiously optimistic individual that wanted change, but didn’t think it would be coming any time soon.  
• Reevaluating what money really means to me.  In previous years chasing money was just a way to acquire things to show off what I don’t have.  I’ve had plenty of time to do that though.  Now in helping out others and trying to enrich their lives I can help myself in ways I wouldn’t have previously.  I don’t want to be 50 with a big house or 60 with a Cadillac as that last trinket that I have; those purchases that you have earned the right to have because you are old and have retirement money.  Your great grandfather with a cashmere sweater or perhaps your grandmother with a mink coat, that type of thing.  That’s so, twentieth-century, yet there has to be something else meaningful out there.
• What friendship means to me.  It had always been so complicated so full of angst.  I always wanted to reach back too would think about people that are no longer around forever.  I was resolved of the idea that they don’t last forever, yet digressed upon hitting 30 and thought perhaps I was the jerk and would be the best friend ever then realized that there really is no such thing.  Reality sucks, yet not often in the way that they say that it does.
• Taking a second look in how others see me.  For so long I figured that there weren’t any real consequences in how I treated others because I or someone else would always move on and someone new was always around.  Yet now I’m sort of stuck and I actually have to work through some situations to get to that next level.  I’m not making lateral moves anymore, and that tends to turn you into someone that is easier to get along with for the duration.
• Finally, finishing what was started and facing some things and owning up to others instead of running all the time.  When it becomes a habit you start to forget that you are even doing it.  Fear and loathing is so nineties anyway; no one wants to hear it anymore.  

All in one year, which means that next year there is a lot of work in front of me and I have to see some of these things through.  No one really likes responsibility, but again, you will be left behind.  You have to stop doing what you want to do and do what works for someone else and get in touch with the way that things are these days.  Yes sometimes your personal tastes and preferences are wack, it’s just that simple.  Next year at this time things can be entirely different, one day at a time …